i feel claustrophobic (everything that touches my neck is making me gag, and my loosest shirt is starting to climb closer)

i feel anti-social (all i want is to lay in an abandoned field, miles from the next human drawing breath, and breathe and close my eyes as the warm rain falls)

and as for the other 'he'...
i feel devastated (and i know there are a million reasons he didn't get the message but i just KNOW he never wants to talk to me again)

i feel desperate (for peace, for air, for solitude, for one more chance at love with a boy i barely know.)